Laughter

I went to watch a movie with my family on CNY.

It was a ritual for us to watch something light, funny on CNY.

So it was natural for me to pick All's Well Ends Well 2009.

With Sandra Ng, Raymond Wong, Ronald Cheng and Louis Koo in it, you can't go wrong.

AND LAUGHED I DID.

I hadn't laughed in cinemas for quite a long time, even if i was watching something funny.

But if it was really sad, I would cry and cry.

That day, I laughed. From start to finish.

I felt a sense of happiness, or freedom suppose? Free from negative thoughts?

Anyway, Gong Xi Fatt Chai to anyone reading. If anyone still cares. But what the heck, I like being alone for a while.

Just Go and watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dCGagwApwV0

Welcome, Mr Barack Obama, The 44th President of U.S.A

I was quite emotional when he walked in.

He brought the hope that the Americans needed.

He fueled changes that were to be fulfilled.

He could be THAT ONE.

The one who could right the wrongs.

The one who we, the Malaysians could emulate.

The one who I, could hope he can Change.

Yes, we need to change.

Yes, I need to change.

Yes We Can,

Yes I Can.

Welcome Mr Barack Hussein Obama,

THE 44TH PRESIDENT OF USA.

May God Bless You and America.

And may whatever gods that watch over us, protect us in the coming years.

One more thing.

Who says politics is boring?

For those I know think that the inauguration of Barack Obama means nothing to them,

think again.

He will be the one to change the world, be it economy, political, environmental, international, whatever you can think of.

If you think you can go n without having a care, think again.

Without him, you would be nothing.

Think again.

Growing Up

I used to think that growing up only happens when you're hitting puberty. But I grow up again and again. Until now, I still grow up.

I had to grow up. And move on.
Come to think of it, am I still a child?
Or people are still teething, yet I grew up too fast?

I have to move on.
I have to grow up.
Or maybe they should grow up.

So long, the stupid side of me.
So long, the idiot side of me.
So long, the ever so naive side of me.
So long, the old me.

So long to you too.

To You

Feeling abit down. Need to write more of my thoughts right now.
I've seen so many people commenting on what I write in my blog.
But as you can see, there's no one leaving comments.
Ahh...you do know there is one thing called 'word of mouth'?

I simply have to say this.
Thanks for reading my blog.
I do know that blogs are for people to read.
You can leave your comment here too.
But please do not go and :"hey, have you read her blog?"
"She said something about you...blah blah blah."
Oh, so now I'm a gossip girl?
So now I do stir shites?

I wanted to rant out.
but all I got were hearsayers spinning the web of lies.
And don't think I don't know who you are.
You can invite people to read.
If you think you don't like what I write, tell me TO MY FACE.
Not discuss with your sleazy friends, who happen to be my friends too.

If you read it and don't feel like commenting, then don't.
And by not commenting, you do not tell to others.
Keep it to yourself.
I know who reads it.
I know who 'invited' others to read my blog.

So I just had to rant this out.
Well, if you don't like it, then TELL IT TO ME.






Maybe I need to change crowds. Just maybe.
I need a life too.

Conflict and Ganging up

You know, I seem to have lots of these b*shites going on.
It might just be me. Yeah.
I have a solemn face. Yeah I do.
I don't talk when I'm mad. Yes I do.

But you know what, why does it have to be me who is going on about this?
Does it mean I have bad interpersonal skills?
Does it mean I have my own principle that is shit?
Does it mean I will have to grovel at their feet and beg for forgiveness?

I do know that there is someone who deserves what I do.
Do you want me to name names?
Do you?

I've thought about leaving all this behind, find new friends.
Am so disappointed with friends, friends who I thought could stick with me through thick and thin.
Friends who could differentiate from good people.
Friends who knew that the person was BAD news and chose not to befriend him or her.

BUT NO.
All I had were friends who HAD to befriend that person because for the greater good of the GANG.
HAD to befriend that person so that everything will be rosy.
HAD to befriend that person even though they know that the person is using them and getting them to pick sides.

What is wrong with not picking sides?
What is wrong with sticking to the same friend for all these time?
I knew you since I came to KL.
You were a good friend, helped me. And I stuck with you even though people say bad things about you.
But what now? Continue to be friends with that person?
My brother was right. I'm not your mom, neither your partner. I could only watch and keep quiet. You know how it is when I say something. That person would stand out and spread things about me. It's not I've never been wounded.

And you, who claims to be someone that superior.
Do you know what? You can't be all godlike.
Yes you have a sound mind. But do you think whatever you say is appropriate?
I thought we were friends. So I thought I could accept and apology from you and move on.
BUT NO. YOU COULDN'T CLIMB DOWN FROM THAT PEDESTAL AND SAY SORRY TO ME.
I was so disappointed. Seems like a message from me to you fell on deaf ears. And you had the nerve to let people see that message, yet didn't know what I was talking about.
Seems to me that you never stray too far from our arch-nemesis, do you?

Do you want me to name names?
Do you?

S.H.E

Crappy photos I know. Sorry.
I couldn't get my lens in time, so I was praying hard that it would suffice for me. WRONG.
Anyway, here are some pics when I went to see my lovelies.

Oh, I brought the camwhore queen with me. And now she's in the Fan's Club with me! Haha!

This is horrendous. Notice the people behind? That's what you get with S.H.E. Can't bear to remind myself with the Times Square incident. Packed like sardine. Smelt like everyone cause I was drenched with EVERYONE'S sweat. And they cancelled the autograph signing session! CRAP!

Am waiting for the 3 ladies... (no am not talking to you-know-who. just obligatory photo for the fan's club).

AHHHH...I hear sounds....and the emcee said: "I think S.H.E is here"...



OH NO. *pushing from behind ensues*



See!! See! My Hebe!! Managed to capture them when they arrived. HEBEBEBEBEBEBEBEBE!!!

This is really horrendous. You couldn't see me. I was pushed soooo hard against the barrier that now my arms hurt.

The nearest I could shoot. And this was taken by one of the members who could sit at the VIP zone! Need to get zoom lens....zooom...

Pose 1 for S.H.E robots.

Pose 2. Notice Hebe's pose didn't change? She was laughing damn hard.

And pose 3. Ella was really happy that day, despite all three of them were having a bad flu.

The other fan's club were celebrating their 6th birthday. Put our club to shame really. Haiz...

We were the first club here. Dunno what to do when they had all the committee come up. Wish I was on stage...Hebe...mmmm....

Funny thing. We were wondering whether Yan Wan Qian, the Astro Talent Quest 2008 champion was to come, since she was a big fan of S.H.E and my Hebe (MINE! MINE!). She didn't...until around 10pm, my friend saw her rushing over towards the stage, let them sign their album, passed her album to them, and went off. WoW. Must be one happy lass. Wish I was famous too.

Was really happy to see them. Once a year was enough for me. And they were in a jovial mood, saying nonsense on stage, cracked us up real good.

LOVE YA GUYS!

New Year Resolutions (Late Ones!)

Havent been doing my New Year resolutions, because I tend to not follow anything at all.
But since I have a blog, and I hope to turn things around (stupid people and events happen to me all the time!), so I'm giving this a shot.

What I Hope To Do This Year:

1) Get a job.

2) Get someone to spend more time with me. (ie someone for a relationship? I'm 24 already.)

3) Get more money.

4) Get more new friends.

5) Get a new attitude.

6) Get at least an Apple product.

7) Get new lens for my Nikon D60.


What I Hope Not To Do:

1) Lose more friends.

2) Be pessismistic.

3) Be alone for special occasions.

4) Be jobless.

5) Be stuck in a 'gang conflict'.

6) Be the target of cynical and sarcastic comments. (yes bitches you know who you are)





That's all folks. Hope I can stick to it.

Heartbroken

Am being betrayed.
No words can express now.
Please leave me alone.

It's 2009!

My My...I've been so busy until I forgot to blog about the year 2008.

2008 was a year that many things happened. I got a job, lost it, had new friends, recovered some old schoolmates (thru Facebook!), lost more of the friends I had.

My family. There were good and bad. My brother came home for the holidays, yet he wasn't proud. He didn't score well to get into Uni. My sis, finished her SPM, yet is in National Service when I'm posting this article. My dad, had the best year apparently. Won the Agong's cup recently, but not leading the Perak team. The Melaka team had not won the Cup in 41 years. So that was a milestone. My mom. Hmmm. She had a bad year, health was not on her side. Had been in the hospital, to clinics, and more. Hope she has a good year ahead.

Year 2009.

I celebrated in the back of my CRV, where we were rushing back to Ipoh from Malacca just for my sis, who had to report to the Kuala Kangsar came on 1st Jan 2009. Although we were together as a family, it was somehow sad. It was the last day actually, with my brother going back to Adelaide on February 16th, and my sister coming back on March 11th. So it's just me and my parents. And I haven't gotten a job too.

There's one thing bugging me. I had a friend who SMS-ed me, saying she went clubbing on the 31st. I mean, fine, just enjoy. But what she did was, she SMOKED. And DRANKED.
That was the last straw. How many times could I advise her? Tears were in my eyes when she sent me this. I couldn't bear to think any more. It's just sad. I appreciate your honesty, but as my friend, I cannot bear this to happen. If you do respect me, then please, do not just present your honesty to me. Do what you think is right.



Hope 2009 is a good year. And don't make my heart broken again.