Tagged 2

1. How old are you?

Am 23 this year, turning 24. And next year's my year. MOOOO.

2. Are you single?

Yes I am. Sadly for the past 23 years. Never been in love. At all. Infatuation the most, but that was all worthless. Maybe am destined to take care of my mom and dad.

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?

Maybe NEVER? I dunno, it's too a far-fetched thing right now. With no one by my side, I'll be day-dreaming my way to Poughkeepsie. Maybe it's got to do with my family, marriage never seems perfect, although I do envy happy couples. Maybe. Just MAYBE.

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?

Judging by the fact that I never had any guy friends...well...not much guy friends...I doubt that. Most of them are taken. Correction. ALL of them are taken. So unless I'm Ellen DeGeneres, I doubt I'll be marrying one of my kind. I mean I would if I was really in love with someone...but I guess my parents would kill me then. Hoho. Kidding.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?

Errrrr.....I dunno. Lemme see....eye candies aplenty in the entertainment industry, but na-da in the real world. Zac Efron-ish, with humour like Show Luo or Russell Peters, can cook like Curtis Stone...might be someone from Mars. I really dunno about this.

Can I have one of this? Oops no. He's taken.

Did I give him this panty? No.

Curtis: Can you take me home? I'll cook for you.

Me: Ooh yes.

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
Lemme see. I do want something very light, and simple. Traditional weddings are a bore. You gotta do this and that, and you gotta follow it very strictly, like a fire drill where you have to go where, do what and in the end, its a disappointment where some old aunties will say the food's not that great or too boring. Beach wedding would be nice, but it gets sticky in the end, I mean our skin and feet. I can't think of anything right now, get back to me when I have someone who I like? Thanks.

7. Your ideal motif?
Eh? You mean with all the 'We're getting MARRIED, you blind people!!!" motifs? Oh. NONONONONO. Nothing at all. Red seems fine, but don't be all blood red, it makes the whole event like some triad member sploshing red paint on your door! Not white, in case I kena the 'monthly issue'. Beige would be nice.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
You know, I suddenly remembered that there's one kind of wedding where everyone is invited to a place or a cruise ship, and they kinda have the honeymoon together with the guests that bride and groom invited. URGH. That is one big mistake. Who would wanna spend the first wedding night with rowdy guests and relatives??? WHO?? When you wanna spend some quiet and ahem time, you can't help but be afraid they might be keeping an eye on both of you! AH. Back to the question. I kinda like London or Paris, or even New York. Or Hokkaido. Or the Carribeans. But anyway, wherever is nice when you have someone you love with you. Even if it's Cameron Highlands or Redang Island.

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
My family, his family. Some people who I think can behave well. Not those rowdy arses that drink and get ballistics. Like dad's friends and some of his family. URGH. Some friends that I think I still would be friends until that day. I wouldn't mind around 100 people that day, compared to 1000 people you don't know. If 1000 that is, I can open a concert! Haha.

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Simple. VERY SIMPLE. No wedding dresses with train like Princess Diana's. Just simple dress (can't believe I would wear a dress that day!), and a small bouquet of flowers? God I don't like flowers. Then food would be marvellously subtle yet extravagant in taste. I've tasted BAAAAAD food in a wedding, to which I was very HUNGRY since the 3rd course. No chinese meal in courses unless it's delicious. I can't starve my guests, right?

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
Errr....can I not have vows? I'm not actually stellar in public speaking, let alone exchanging mushy stuff in front of so many people! Darn...err...if I haaaadddd to, then I'll do it myself. I remembered watching one episode of Friends where Monica and Chandler were doing their vows, Rachel and Phoebe were so touched with Monica's, while Joey and Ross were laughing mad with Chandler's. In the process, Chandler stole Monica's vows and changed the names! Hmmm....if my husband were funny...then he might end up like that. Just simple stuff would do lah!



12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
I've seen cheapo people using fake layers, and then pretend to cut one layer like they have 4-5 layer!!! YOU CHEAP LIARS!! If you can't afford them then just do 1 or 2! Cheaters. Back to me, I'd like 1 or 2. Or see how many guests that I've invited. Simple. NO FAKE LAYERS!

In Nigella's words, hideous.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
I'd like it somewhere else. You can't find a hotel that is simple, 'cause they tend to have typical settings to it. But if I can really find some hotel that I like, there's no harm. Provided they have excellent service or food.

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
Possibly when it's not too sunny, you wouldn't want the bride and groom, and everyone squinting their eyes right? I really hate those chinese weddings where the groom has to 'fetch' the bride at a specific time, and it's usually morning. Have to wake up damn early to do make-up and put on the wedding gown. Darn. Hate it. Can't we be flexible?? AH, IF YOU INVOKE THE GODS THEN YOUR MARRIAGE WILL NOT BE SMOOTH AND HAPPY. Hmmph.

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?
No. I do not like people staring at me. Can I just stand there and wait for the groom instead?


17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding??
Erm. I guess no SHE songs, 'cause I would be singing also. HAHA. I dunno, haven't found a perfect song.

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person. Definitely. I always get some ideas or stuff to blog about when I lie in my bed. But am too lazy to do anything. In the end, I'll forget everything in the morning. Bah.

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one of course. Solemn one means every single person would be pulling long faces in that ceremony. And I don't look good when I am solemn.

20. What age do you want to get married?
When I do find someone I guess. I'll just keep trying. But after 50, I think I will give up. No hope then.

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
Zac? But he likes long hair, and quite vain I guess. Just simple clean cut look would do. It could be like Leehom, but he's a workaholic. I can be quite dependent if given the occasion. Well, as long as he's okay then I don't mind.





22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
It all depends on the food I guess.


23. Champagne or red wine?
Champagne seems light enough. I don't really like wine and stuff.

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Right after, 'cause I'm one person who will do things right till the end. If you leave it like that, then I won't have the mood anymore.

25. Money or household item?
Money. No household items. I dunno how to use them anyway.

26. Who will pay for the bills?
He would. But I might foot some. Might.

27. Are you ready for married life?
I guess so. Some of my friends are married with kids. Darn. Must be getting old. But married life is another dimension altogether, so I'll have to think twice.

28. Do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
Harharhar....would my mom see this?? Errr....she thinks that we dunno these stuff. I hope that I will be 'happy' when I get married. 'Cause guys are hard to please, and so am I. Does that answer your question? *face reddens*

29. Will u always be true to your wife/husband?
Cancerians and those who are born in the year of the ox are noted for loyalty. Whaddya mean I will always be true to my spouse or not? What kind of question is that?!

30. How many kids do u like?
I dunno. Seeing that I'm the one who will be popping them in my oven, 1 or 2 would be fine. But that all depends on him.

31. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
New one, and a very spacious one. I don't want to clean them everyday, so a service apartment would be quite nice. Lazy mah.

32. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
Till death do us part?

33. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
Something simple. Something Gordon Ramsay, Jamie Oliver, Nigella Lawson, or Kylie Kwong would do. So they would be my cooks for that day! HA!

34. Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
Mmmm. Yeah. Of course. Would I include some steamy honeymoon action? I'm not Edison leh.

35. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next??? choose 5 people
Reuben Kang.
Canny Teh.
Yurong.
Baihe.
Elaine Tan.

Tagged 1

1.The last person to tag you is?
My sis. Who's been tagging this for a month!


2.Your relationship with him/her?
What's more to say? HAHAHAHAHA.



3.Your 5 impression towards him/her?
Attention hogger, pervert, crazy, neglecting her doggie, and violent as well.


4.The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
Can't remember actually.



5.The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?
"Jie~~~" 'Coz that means you'll have to take care of her.



6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
SORRY I DON'T DO INCEST.



7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...

SORRY I DON'T DO SIBLING RIVALRY.


8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
LOSE WEIGHT, FAT GIRL! (spoken in true Russell Peters style)



9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
She took away mum's love from me...boohoo...TT_TT



10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
Hope that she turns out fine in life later.



11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
My sis lorrr....what more can you say??



12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

Emo kid...and keerrraaazzzzeee...


13. The character of you for yourself is?
Emotional, and too helpful in a way that I'll get hurt emotionally.



14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Too emotional until I'm not that professional at all.



15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
A happy, loving person. (being deceitful is my motto,haha)



16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them?
Errrrrrr...thanks???


17. Bra or panties?
I'd like both on, thanks very much!


18. Chocolate or ice-cream?
Neither, but will choose ice cream i guess.



19. 10 people to tag.
1 Phillip Goh
2 Elaine Tan
3 Shuk Ling
4 Canny Teh
5 Yeong Keat Mei
6 Joy Lee
7 Reuben Kang
8 Goh Hong Kiat
9 Lee Pai Seang
10 Chey Feng Mey



19. Is 3 a male or a female?
A female of course.



20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing?
WOOWOWW...i bet their partners wouldn't think so....



20. Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
Some one 'special'??



21. How about 5 and 8?
Hmmm...dunno about that...they both went to Australia to study...might be a good match...but age should be a matter..



22. What is number 1 studying about?
KUAKUAKUAKUA....engineering???



23. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Does MSN count?



24. Is number 4 single?
NO! She is taken, people! Lay off!



25. Say something about number 2.

My bestie since uni!!! Love her to bits!


26. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?
Mmmmm...they don't do homos i'm for sure!



27. Describe number 9.

Old uncle of the decade!!! Joker of the uni lah!!!


28. What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
I will stand there and cheer them on! I will also be very grateful that I didn't go to Lim Kok Wing and stay in Subang when I was little!! hahaa...

I QUIT! (sorta...)

That's it. I QUIT!

Well, I am officially jobless.

I can't say much, but it came too suddenly for me.
I can just say, they didn't keep their promise. And yet they were quick to make decisions that we didn't know.

DISAPPOINTED.

Anyone has jobs to offer?

Another crap planning.

Am getting very very pissed.
I believe being a pilot is very proud and all, but if everyone keeps flying planes and kites, then it's not a big deal to be a pilot.

Am freakingly pissed.
Someday can I do that to piss you guys off?
But I guess you don't care too, coz you guys will have each other.

Feels like shit to be alone.

That's It.

That's it.

I used to think I was a jinx when i planned anything. It would either nobody could come for some occasion, or nobody would go.

I've had enough. Twice in a day is enough. If you people wanna go anywhere or something, don't, DON'T ASK ME TO PLAN.

You don't know how disappointed I was. You don't know how much happiness I had. I thought I had the whole thing in control. Then, in one afternoon, everything came crashing down.

Sorry. I had enough.





Another thing.

I am tired and sick of people who are farking thinks they are smart-assed and self-absorbed.
Yes you do play good game. But it's just a freeeekkkkiiinnnn GAME. You do not need to be proud.

Sarcasm is my middle name. But your sarcasm is waaaaayyyy overboard. I could have strangled you then and there. Maybe you should keep your fat mouth shut. Maybe I should rip it off your face. But I chose not too. Because I see you as a acquaintance. Not a friend, but someone I know for sometime. A decency to apologize is adequate. But I guess you are either too ignorant or too self-absorbed to apologize. One more time and I guess you will know how it feels. I believe that you do not like people talking about you and a 'special someone', but we are your best 'sarcasm dartboard'? Get a life.




I have sooooo much to rant this time.


What's it with people taking sides???
A gang of friends, throw in some firestarter aunties, and you get some siding actions.
I guess I can never win those kepohchi aunties, but you know what, I guess I have no fate to be close to you. You can forget my birthday, you can forget our birthday, whatever.

Oh yeah, I guess if you think you have someone to celebrate it with, we don't need to celebrate it with you!! YES LET'S DO THAT!!!



I'm sick and tired with these bitches.
Maybe I'm a bitch myself.
At least I'm not a slut. Harhar.

Ladies and Gentlemen...

Hello all,

This trip is coming to an end soon.

I will be ending my dream soon.

Thanks and have a nice day.

This one takes the cake!

I was meant to be blogging about the joys of commercial shoot, but alas, i guess it's no use.
I had the worst day of my life. I've never been so angry until my hands were shaking. My hands went numb. I was red in the ear. I couldn't breathe.

In my life, there will always be enemies. There will always be people that you don't wish to see them alive. But today, this person takes the cake.

This line producer, we shall call her Haywire, or HW shall we?

She is in our latest project, which I think is spooked or cursed, because everything is farked up. As a freelancer who has experience in tv shows, she could have at least done something right, after all these year, right?

WRONG.

She is only in charge of flight tickets, transportation and 1 location. And she can even make mistakes. GOD.

She has a history since another job, which the others claim she farked up big time. BIG TIME AS IN SHE WENT TO B**CH ABOUT THE PRODUCER'S STUFF.

She went to the right people I guess. The Agency.

She has a knack of 'slapping the horse's butt' I would say. Mengampu betul...And she would b**ch about others to other people. Oh did I mention, EVERYONE except HER.

So now, I am totally not respecting her, because she is not worthy of respect. And now, she is trying to sabotage me.

I did 3 things: a room arrangement list, a transportation list on who's with who in a van, and a travel movement.
SHE WENT AND DID ONE HERSELF. When the other line producer SY asked her, she said: "I just don't trust her."


WTF??????????!!!!!!!!!!!


So now u mean I'm doing nothing lah???!!!

She also arranged the van movement so bad, that The Asst Director was fed up with her. And I was supposed to take the talents to Cameron, which she strongly opposed, asking me to go Teluk Intan, swap cars and go with the team.

HELLO!!! Siao ar you!

She said it would incur costs when I do that. And she gave me tons of excuses. TONS.
I said maybe XX need my help in Cameron. She has no car, nothing. How could she travel anywhere??
She gave me an answer that would kill us all. " There is a Taxi stand there."

WAHLAU EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sooooooooooooooooooooooo mad that I nearly screamed at her. But I held back. And it was raging inside me. Until I couldn't breathe.



Tomorrow. I will confront her. Should I paste her photo her? In case anybody wants to know?

BTW, she is 30 years old. She should know better.

4 Months into my job...and I'm torn apart...

It's been ages since I've written an entry here...
I've been busy (or rather mulling over work) these past few months on the Tourism Malaysia job.
Actually it's not only a 2 month job, it's a job that has been going on until recently, thanks to the ingenious people in the advertising agency and clientele. (oh and not to mention the 'gigi rosak tapi orang bayar dental fees' punya Director General of Tourism Malaysia.)

So I'm stuck here.
Stuck because they have no ample staff (or no abled staff here).
Just because I did not apply for leave, they just chucked me and my friend around.
Kicked around like a round round ball.

I have voiced out to my management staff.
What do I get? Nothing.

What should I do?
I have 2 more months to my so-called 'probation period' (kena tipu jugak, coz the contract states that the probation period is 3 months, but it's already 4 months...).

SHOULD I WAIT FOR 6 MONTHS BEFORE I LEAVE?
OR SHOULD I LEAVE NOW?

WHAT SHOULD I DO???

Please Kill Me or I Will Starve

WTF...the lovely and very caring Malaysian government has just announced that there will be a price hike in petrol starting 5th June 2008, 12am.

The price will be from RM1.92 to Rm2.70, a 78sen raise since March 2006...

GOOD OR NOT?!

So damn farking happy till I nearly vomit blood ler...

What are we supposed to do? Celebrate the price hike? Throw confetti around??

Good lah, since petrol is expensive, then the other stuff will might as well be expensive too lor!

The prices are rising, but the salary is not.

MALAYSIAN GOVERNMENT AR, CAN YOU ALSO RAISE OUR SALARY KE?!

REALLY PISSED.

*UPDATED: Electricity bills are also going up from July 1st. Muahaha...let's light candles and ride a bike to work. If I know how to ride a bike lah.

Siao people in the office...

*yawns* I've just been awake after a gruelling day at work that kept me there until 3am...so tired...and when I came to work today (which is still work day when I wrote about this...), we went berserk. Here are proofs of our insanity:

Siao cha bos (frm left: Jolene, Tut Tut) having a Prego Moment.

It gets worse.

Ahaha...we will have more fun things to do later when we continue our phototaking sessions. Will post them up soon! Till then...*yawn*...

*UPDATED: Check out a stupid video made by us! Wohoooo...damn funny...

My Office Looks Like a Clinic To Me

See? Chairs lined up one by one, waiting for the casting. It seems like they're lining up to get their daily dose of medicine.

We're doing casting at the mo', so tons and tons of either beautiful or just...ermm...nice people will turn up to try their luck for the commercial. Having fun so I can't complain much, just that it's mundane to do these stuff for the whole week!

I'm now known as 'G Nui', or G Girl, or in plain Canton 'Pig Girl' in my company, courtesy of my producer. And I'm in charge of logistics in the upcoming project. So, *fingers crossed* I will do good in my job!

Work Work and More Work!

Finally...I found some work to do!
Not that I'm bragging about it, 'cause I did try to do something that I wasn't keen on, only to quit on the same day I reported to work! Poor people...the lady was very kind to let me go, but I can see that she was very disappointed. Sorry...

Okay! So what am I working on now?
I am doing production job, which surprised myself 'cause after a short stint with Popiah Pictures, I was not very keen on doing hectic work day and night. Luckily this company offered something new: TV commercials. As you know, I am an advert lover, so this could be an eye opener for me.

Anyway, only 1 week in the job...dunno what I can contribute yet..so *fingers crossed* I'll get a good gig soon!

David Archuleta Scares The Be-jesus Outta Me

Oh my god...little boy with a big voice...

Just saw today's American Idol. The stakes are getting higher and higher. And this David Archuleta is not waning a single bit. God, he scares the hell out of me...everytime he sings, I get the goosebumps! He's only 17, but he never ever sings out of pitch...is he FOR REAL??

Anyway...had a rough day...been scalped by a potential employer, and yet I stood up to him and negotiated with him. Hope it turns out fine.

My Family: The Details

Remember the photo that i posted? With all of my friends? That was during the birthday party for 2 people. It was a rare photo that all of us were there to celebrate a birthday.

So...wanna know more about my friends aka My Family here in KL?

Read On.

1. Helen Choo aka Stingy aka Bak Gu Zhi Zhu Jing


She's the one who is seen as the more affluent type, yet holds her purse tighter than my mouth. A local by nature, I've known her since my college days. She's the donkey of the gang, cause everyone LOVES to bully her. Muahaha...but we like her all the same.

2. Chey Feng Mey aka Chimky aka Mrs Lee


Blur case and one-third of the infamous Zoo Negara group. (the others I will intro). From Melaka, she is seen as a good producer, or maybe that we pushed her to be the producer often? A short fuse and gets emo easily, she became more subdued recently. Why you say. In love lor, what else. Romantically linked to Baba Lee for 1 year until they became a couple this year. Congrats!





3. Lee Pai Seang aka Baba Lee aka Mr Lee


Dunno why they called him Baba (father). But it originated from his 'daughters' from our class. A real joker (laughed like mad when he talk jokes and nonsense), he is a helpful guy and a computer whiz. The only downside? Blur, and VERY VERY MOH (slow).... now stuck with Chimky, he is more indecisive than EVER.


4. Teng Suet Mui aka Tiger aka Mui Mui


The second member of Zoo Negara group, Tiger Mui is one very very white Tiger... She's always running off during the weekends to JB, to where her heart belongs (YY)... Now based in Singapore, she is a deft in making handicrafts and singing old old old Chinese tunes...so good even she can compete in the Astro Golden Melody!




5. Melisa Lim aka Miao aka Water Lover

The best of our group. Melisa (or we call her Ah Miao) holds Distinction during Diploma days, and also First Class during her Degree days. Diligent worker yet she keeps lament that she doesn't know much (tipulah you!). Loves the beach and the pool, and her aim is avoid becoming white!

6. Tan Yee Lu aka Lulu aka White Lady


The whitest of the white in our gang. Oh no...you can even see through her! She seldom hangs out with us as she lives farther than us, but she always gets the juiciest gossip from Auntie Siew Hui. A kind girl at heart, she always comes out with a good solution whenever the occasion rises.



7. Foo Shuk Ling aka Zirafah aka Behling


Known her the longest since few weeks into college. She always comes to our rescue whenver we need help. She stands by her teacher Ms Tan and also any good lecturer (Mr Beh). Although I have hurt her feelings before, but she still treats me as a good friend. Thank you for it.

8. Teh Li Yin aka Nini Bobo aka Squirell


The mother of our group. Cooks a feast for 8 before. But she is the one with graphical creativity, that she honed from reading HK mags like Milk, Touch, etc. Always known for her 'woman;y curves', she is one to talk to when you need a shock into reality.



9. Auntie Yee Siew Hui and Uncle Lee Fo Sheng aka Mr and Mrs Lee 2 aka Golden Couple


Known since they were stuck together, Auntie Siew Hui and Uncle Lee were the couple most seen to tie the knot earliest. Although they have quarrels, they still stayed on until now. When will their wedding be?? Hmm...

10. Tan Fui Fong aka Lion aka Tut Tut


MY BESTEST BEST FRIEND. She is the gang leader of the Zoo Negara group. A loudmouth and a good PR, she is the one to book the karaoke sessions, or call to any place that we need to make bookings. Although she has a short fuse that sometimes made me disappointed, I still love her the same. Oh, and she's my spokesperson! Muahaha....Thanks pal, love ya for it!


So here you go. They are My Family, although we don't get together that often, I will still think of you guys. Thank you for being there for me. Hope we can meet again soon!

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I AM OFFICIALLY YOUTHMALAYSIA.COM AMPLIFIER YOUTH!

Please read the intro ahaha...so funny!

Letting the cat out of the bag

How are those ways of being a better leading figure?

GOD! This is sooooo damn boring! Sitting around, nothing to do, just lazing and watching your fave shows (I’m currently watching a forbidden thing: Sex and The City). It seems a wonderful dream to those corporate slaves, and to those who need a break. Well, it does seem great until…

I stumbled across an article pinned on my brother’s room’s notice board. He’s left to go to Adelaide for his studies. So I went in, and looked at this article. It was an article about how to be a better father. Seeing that, it gave me strength to write about that in here, in my blog.

What’s to say about my father? Well, you can say that he’s been giving since these few years, And he’s constantly pushing us to do things. Things that we didn’t want to do. But, there’s always a but in these situations. I can safely say that whilst all of you may think he is good at what he does for a living, and he has been able to live his dreams, we, as children have not been doing well in our lives.

10 Steps to being a better father.
Why’s that? So you can change your dad? I’m guessing a big no-no. For one, you gonna get a man pissed. FREEKINGLY PISSED. I have my own thoughts and reasons. But one sure thing is that, you better keep your thoughts to yourself. I once wished that I can do what people in the western hemisphere do, speak out. NOPE. YOU KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, MISSY. Maybe that Talian Nur that we have right now is handy for me?
-_-111

I red in that article that you need to have empathy during arguments. Well, hell no. Good luck when you pick a fight with him. Come to think of it, all of us will lose in that battle, no matter who you are. He thinks he is the ONE. THE ONE THAT WE CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT. HE IS ALMIGHTY BREADWINNER. You would think, aww come on, he’s your dad. You gotta give him respect. Yeah, I did. By keeping my fat mouth shut and keep on getting my income from him. Yeah, I did.

I just graduated, and I do need some time off to do my stuff. I wanted to set things right, and give myself some time to think about what I should do about my future. The he gives his POV about what I should do. Rake in big bucks. Do what you like. Oh, yeah. Like that’s gonna come rolling onto your lap. Cool.

Another thing high on the list is compassion. Okay, so he has compassion for the dog that we had at home. He has compassion to the car that he have at home. He has compassion to the deflated basketballs he left behind the laundry.

For now, I am keeping quiet. I have known a lot of stuff that he has did. And I could not do anything. Helpless again.

It's Tough Times Now

Finding a job is hard.
I have sent countless resumes, CVs, whatever to numerous companies.
In some cases, I have sent twice!

Then they didn't even bother to tell me if I have been considered.

It's sad, considering one of it is my past job.
I do not know, whether they think that I have lost touch in my writings, or they don't want an about-turn person in their company.
These people I have always considered them as my best friends.
To think they are nice enough to say whether they considered me or not.

I am not being fussy here,
I'm looking for something to reignite my working passion.

When will I find it?

Dawn of a new era...but what will it be?

Malaysia just voted. And it has been a rollercoaster ride.

In my state, which is Perak, it is being captured by opposition parties, namely, DAP, PKR and PAS.

The only problem is: who will become Menteri Besar?
The answer seems obvious but shocking.
PAS will take the seat.

So what does it make us?
I only hope that we don't become Islamic state.
If it does, then my dad's business will kaput.
And we will be broke.

God help us.
And I don't mean Allah.

Friends are so intoxicating

Friends are so intoxicating. They make some people so stuff that they are not aware of. For example, a group of friends will “coax” someone to flash themselves in front of strangers after a few beers. A group of friends will “ensure” that someone will get laid after chatting up some random guy in the bar.

Friends are THAT intoxicating.

Stupid as it seems, I have been intoxicated before. Friends will stay up late and chat, and you will be sucked into this ‘dark matter’ which they call ‘bonding time’ to chat, gossip and hurl (after some really intoxicating alcohol).

But what does that intoxicating feeling do to you?

Is it really an alcohol of some sort? Or is it designer drugs? Are friends the new designer drugs? (Shit. After Sex and The City, I have become Carrie Bradshaw.) The kind of friends that I know of are those who help you to spur to greater heights, those who help and be with you when you are down, those who will come to your rescue everytime you are being dealt with the worst situation. But what does intoxicating friends do to you?

I have a situation here. My friends had a ‘get-together-party’ at their house (which I did not go) and one of my best pals decided to stay after they started playing poker. Now, here comes the tricky part: She decides to go home, but she is now stuck in the middle playing cards with friends. They cannot stop. She is losing RM30. (Yes, they are considered gambling).

I asked her to stay the night, since her house was quite far away.

She said she had things to do in the morning.

Okay….now I don’t see the whole picture.

You are playing cards (gambling, I suppose), and you are losing. It is already 2am. You have things to do in the morning. So what is the problem here?

That’s right folks. INTOXICATING FRIENDS.

I’m not bloody jealous because I’m not there. I’m not angry that they were gambling. I’m very confused as to which people tend to forget everything when they are with friends. What happens if you insist to go home, and you get mugged, raped or *horror* killed????

Would your friends say: “Oh, I’m sorry I asked you to stay until so late. Here, let me take care of you for the rest of your life.”?

Would your friends say: “Sorry it happened. We will pay for the brainwashing process.”

Who would care?!
The most they can do is send you flowers and comfort words. And they let you go on.

Even the government won’t take care of you for the rest of your life.

I’m not saying friends are bad, in case ‘eagle nosy parkers’ start to look at this post and say I’m a ASSHOLE. (Read the whole story, YOU ASSHOLE).

I’m just saying, PLEASE GET A GRIP. You are a grown person. I have no control over you. You should know what is right or wrong. If I was there, I would be considered a party-pooper. But I know when to stop this whole stay up late thing.

Some people live there. Some people don’t. What will happen to those who don’t live there? Stay the night then. But if you have other things to attend to the next day, FOR GOD’S SAKE PLEASE GO HOME EARLY.

I feel so helpless here.

But I can’t do anything. Because I’m a nobody.

I'm Addicted To...Sex And The City

Shit...I love it so much!

Carrie Bradshaw, Samantha Jones, Charlotte York and Miranda Hobbes have been in my life these past few months, even though the show wrapped up four years ago.

Explicit words and scenes aside, the dialogues and acting are so intriguing that I can't help but fall in love with these four women...


And...


They are back! The latest Sex And The City: The Movie will be in cinemas (presumably not in Malaysia) on 30 May 2008! Can't wait!

What is the definition of living together?

BORING DAY AGAIN. My bro has been constantly saying my blog is somewhat of a complaint box for me. Well, I would like to say is that: It is. Since no one is interested in my writings, I might as well make this blog as an escapade from my daily problems. It is nice to express myself for once.
I finally got to watch an old movie, since it had been shown in cinemas for about 2 years ago? It’s a teen flick or some chick amateur flick of some sort (yes, I like chick flick, romantic comedies, etc etc. I know I am studied film, but hey, it’s what I choose to like, you horror-loving morons). Starring Jaycee Chan and Fiona Xie, the English title’s called 2Young (Chinese: 早熟). I was touched by it, with some power acting by 毛舜君and 黄秋生。He was particularly stellar when he tried to arrange stuff for Fiona Xie when he found out her daughter was preggers. She shouted to him:”You always arrange things for me! You don’t even know what your daughter wants!” That brought tears to me…*sob*
But what makes me curious is when both Jaycee and Fiona run off to the countryside to live together. Jaycee makes money by doing odd-jobs and Fiona becomes a cute little housewife. And how do they survive? By eating maggi mee and canned foods, scouring for fishes in a nearby pond and sweet potatoes in a field. Walaoeh, got so nice a place to stay in HK meh? Abandoned place in Sai Kung, with nothing in it, they decorated it like heaven, then rich girl Fiona learns how to cook and wash, like oblivious to the fact that she is pregnant! Then Jaycee like so good, get money and give it all to Fiona. (wow, girls would drool for it!) And they had a small argument about nothing to talk anymore, and the end of the argument. Wow…what a fairytale story.
Here’s the main point: what is really, the definition of staying together? Call it what you want, living together, shack up, cohabit, 同居, bersekedudukan…but what does it actually mean?I won’t Wikipedia coz I think it is lame to do so. I’ve had several friends who does that with their partners, recently a bizarre case where they actually live together without being acknowledged as partners yet. So…………….that is really odd. As per usual, I’m not entitled to give my POV so that I might AGAIN offend people. But does anyone read it? SOOOO CONFUSING…might as well blow my head off, you people.
My definition of living together would be like, ok, you guys wanna stay together for purposes of saving rent costs, fine. Will think of trying to live together to see if relationships do work after marriage, ok, fine. Will think of trying to live together ‘coz erm…we have been staying together for past few months and we just got into this relationship so..what the heck! We might as well stay together now! Erm…that is just plain weird. I’m not saying that these people wanna live together for the sake of ‘we lived together before’ thingy. Maybe I am a conservative person, maybe I am not. But I just can’t help to think that people who just hooked up a few days would live together just before! Is it plain foreplay? Or is it just I dunno, plain wacko job? What are the ramifications? You could be like over the relationship but have to still have to stay in the same freakin’ room until the tenancy is over. What would your parents say if they found out a guy that has only been going out with you for a couple of weeks waking up next to you, shirtless (I’m not saying sleeping shirtless with the love-of-your-life is not good. I’m just saying, if you have banged her, then it’s legally ok)? The effects of living together is not really good. I once contemplated in living together if I have a bf, which I don’t. But someone, let’s call her T, told me the best thing in relationships is to keep a distance from each other. If you live together, the chances are arguments and possibly sick of each others faces (that is, if you people like to eat each others faces when kissing). Maybe some people love the idea of living together. There are happy endings to living together. What I am saying is: think before doing it. And to my friends, you know who you are, what’s happened during that past few months, I have absolutely no idea. Mind clearing that up?
So what is the definition of living together? You tell me. If you happen to read this of course. ( But I doubt it)

Sod Off! Need Anger Management? Or just don't piss me off!

I'm feeling abit pissy these few days. And I start to wonder: what is it that no one agrees to what I've said or done? And why are they picking on stuff that I've suggested?

Take a simple scenario: whenever that I suggest a place or something to do, only a few agrees to follow. Others just somehow 'shimmy' away. And when the others do the same, then they say, 'Yeah OK!' WTF!

And another thing. I AM NOT LOADED. I HAVE NO MONEY OR WHATSOEVER. DO NOT THINK MY FAMILY IS FACKING RICH OR WHAT. THEY HAVE A BUSINESS. AND IF THAT BUSINESS IS DEEMED ILLEGAL IN THIS COUNTRY, GOD KNOWS WHAT WE WILL DO.

Don't you all know that your parents are the ones who are lucky and safe? So what if I have stuff that you guys don't? So what if I choose to live a better life? I do not have extra cash. I have to do something to get them, not just say, hey, I need rmxxx, and presto! I get it.
Absurd people. Stupid as they seem, they think I'm rich. Fools. They are the ones who should thank their lucky stars that they were born in a good family, with caring parents and siblings and a steady income. They don't know us, they don't know what my family have to strive to get what we have. And it could become bust suddenly. But no one seem to care. No one. All they think is that I'm well off than them.

I JUST CHOOSE TO LIVE BETTER. AND CHOOSE TO DO WHAT I WISH TO. NOT WORRY ABOUT MATERIALISTIC STUFF, SAY....MONEY???



I felt the compelling urge to strangle, wring off their heads and throw certain people in the murky dark waters of the Straits of Malacca. Don't think that you are shielding behind someone that you make yourself innocent. Even if that person thinks fondly of you, you still piss me off.

Maybe I need anger management. Maybe I am Niki Sanders, and inside me is Jessica. Maybe. Just maybe.

So why can't I let me dark side out?