New Year's

Whatta year it was for me.
I was nothing in 2009.
I went from something to nothing in 2009.
Everyone I knew was moving ahead, I was stuck without any help at all.

I travelled to a place.
I did a multi-million project.
I became closer to my family.
I searched for a way to survive.
I took a year off.


Then 2010 came. I was browsing through everyone's Facebook status, and all I saw was people whom I knew that they couldn't even bother about caring for others, people who think they are content with their perfect lives, people who don't give a f*** about me. They were lamenting, cursing, worrying, groaning about the lives that they have right now.

What do they know?

I couldn't help but SMILE. I felt I was in a good position right now. I have a job offer which I'm still contemplating, an interview, a dream job coming soon. And I've grown closer to a person whom I still care deeply for.

I LAUGHED at those silly people.

Why did you think you could be happy and yet grumble about your work?
Why did you think you could buy nice things for your 'friends', just to make them stay as your friends?
Why are you complaining about a job that you have that pays well?
What kind of dreams that you have anyway?

I scoffed. I used to think I have a dream job. But unfortunately I have to let go of it. I knew I wasn't confident enough, and I don't have that talent at all. Luckily, another door opened for me. I hope I'll get it.



I know 2010 is my time. And I know I will step on those who have ridiculed, looked down on me.
Do not think that you reign over me by just having what I use to have. You may have friends whom you lavish great gifts, have nice parties, socialize like a butterfly, and yet you are always the one who I look down.

I felt really good reading those status updates. I couldn't say taking a year off was my best option, but I think it did me well.